if only i could do something to make it all stop hurting/ now my heart feels like it’s missing something every time your names comes up/ it’s so bad that i can’t even wish you luck in person / i know i chose to walk away /but i honestly wish you well /i could’ve waited a few months you would’ve said/ you did six years , why not a few more months/my heart left my body and it wouldn’t have been fair to either of us/ we were hurt enough already / know i can’t reach out for you/ but i might one day

what would’ve been difficult if i could really talk to you/ you didn’t look alright / i kinda held myself responsible/ oh lord, please , please let her be okay.

my heart stopped when our eyes met /no words came out /i probably said hi , don’t know if you heard me/ you looked different somehow/but would you have even told me if i asked?/ hoped deep within that you are okay/my heart ached to your sight, oh how much i missed everything about you/ maybe in some parallel universe we were made for each other/ i and would’ve embraced you right there instead of looking at the ground.

You’re name is written in every place I look/ you are every where you shouldn’t be

same place, /more silence /closed doors /artificial lights /foot prints /right back where i started /said i’m fine / it’s skin that sheds / it’s hair that falls /we’re breathing poems / these clocks just stopped.